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hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Thursday, June 28, 2007 12:17 PM
everything seemed to have gone back to the original place. it is going round and round, continously. no miracles, no surprises but just routine. don't have a good feeling of coming back to where it was, and perhaps it is just me feeling this way. and yes, i'm still quite affected, but i've let it go. no choices to make until one of them made it clear?

went to cut my hair yesterday. sorry to huize for ps-ing you at orchard. i need go down to dhoby ghaut to get things done. alrights, the maple cards are done. PHEW! so now i don't have any maple cards on hand. hahas. good job! alrights, went to admiralty after going down to bugis to have my hair cut. ate at ze's house. got food to eat is already a blessing. hahas. perhaps because i everyday eat outside, eat til sian liao so always don't feel like eating. heheh. played A-B-C and then two on one til about 9plus. gosh, i played in jeans can? hahah. but at least my hair is short and i don't feel that warm le. i guess i will need more exercise. =)

now, settle court stuff first and i guess will be busy looking out for apartment. yes! going to move out of here. to where? i not sure. since there might only be me who is going to stay alone. shuang! shall persuade my dad to go move back to bullion park and me go out and stay alone. like that i think my allowance will increase bahs. muahaha.

sorry budx. i don't know why i felt that way. but just don't get too affected by her can? i mean, your life should not go around her. i bet she didn't want it to be this way too? got to face up to reality. perhaps, she didn't mean to give you false hope. perhaps, she just need you to encourage her when she's down. like i always say, look at the bigger picture. nothing beats what your heart wants. don't let emotions win over your will. because emotions will fade away, but your will will stay strong. sorry.

and yes, i guess i really didnt take care of myself. but at the same time, i don't feel like taking care of myself. perhaps, i've grown numb in taking extra care. all i need now, is just to eat when i'm hungry, slp when i'm tired. time no longer matters to me. regardless whether is it late, early or the right time. it no longer concern me. but you people out there are different. take good care of yourself before anything happen to your body.

are promises really meant to be broken? or will it be in my heart forever like it used to be?
i'm getting more stranger to myself. i'm getting clueless of what to do.